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[letter two: percy]
Percy,
Sometimes I think all I ever did all this time was make things harder on you. You're a really stubborn person, you know that? Even when I tried to take care of you, you wouldn't let me. I'm really sorry about all the times I tried to argue with you, and about that one time I yelled at you, even if I already apologized for that. I'm sure you already know why I did what I did, so I won't try to explain it. Just remember that you're not alone, okay? Even if I'm not there, I hope the others still are. I know whoever is left will support you, so lean on other people sometimes! They want you to.
I really want to make it all the way to the end, but I decided to write these letters just in case. If you're reading this, something happened to me after all. I'm sorry. I didn't want you to ever have to read something like this. If I have to go, then this is the least I can do for you. There's so much I need to tell you.
The fact that you're reading this now must mean someone found my diary and all my notes and letters. Whoever found all of it, tell them I said you can read my diary too, if you want. Also, I want you to have my walking stick. I know I don't use it anymore, but Riku made it for me. If anyone should have it, it's you.
All I ever wanted this whole game was to save everyone. Now I can't live up to that responsibility, so I need you and everyone else [the "and everyone else" is underlined several times] to do it for me, okay? I know you can win. Even without more killing! Make my death, and anyone who died with me, the last.
You shouldn't be sad! I'll be watching, and if you get sad I'll kick your butt when you guys come save all of us!
You're an amazing person, Percy. You're brave and strong and kind and smart! I hope someday I can be just like you. I've never had a family, but if I did, I wish you could be part of it.
If you somehow find this letter before my trial, please tell everyone... I'm sorry I couldn't make it till the end, and I'll miss them, but you guys have to do your best! I believe in each and every one of you (even you, Ash.), and I know you guys can do it. I'll be cheering for you all the way, no matter what! I guess I'm just sad that I can't be there with you all. [here the paper is stained with a few drops of water, but she goes on through them like they're not there.] But it's okay! We'll all see each other soon.
Please take care of yourself, Percy. Remember that you need to sleep more than once a week. Tell Jason I said he can punch you if you keep trying to do it all on your own.
I'll give Annabeth a hug for you, okay?
Everyone needs you, Percy. But something tells me you need them just as much. Work together, and be strong. I'll see you when this is all over, and maybe we can get ice cream together.
[she draws a little flower. it's not a great drawing, looking almost like a child's sketch, but Percy might notice it looks a lot like the flowers the two of them picked for annabeth and riku's graves.]
-Xion
(PS. Please don't read my diary to Shinnosuke. I wrote some, um, embarrassing stuff, and I really don't want him to know!!)
(PPS. Please read him my letter to him, though. I don't want anyone else to do it.)
(PPPS. Thank you. For everything. For being my friend, and even for trying to take care of me, even if I pushed back sometimes. I don't know what I would've done without you. Never forget that your friends love you.)
[ there's a bit of a break. the note that's added after was pretty clearly done some time later. ]
I hope you make it. I really hope you make it. If Damian doesn't, keep the letter meant for him.
Sometimes I think all I ever did all this time was make things harder on you. You're a really stubborn person, you know that? Even when I tried to take care of you, you wouldn't let me. I'm really sorry about all the times I tried to argue with you, and about that one time I yelled at you, even if I already apologized for that. I'm sure you already know why I did what I did, so I won't try to explain it. Just remember that you're not alone, okay? Even if I'm not there, I hope the others still are. I know whoever is left will support you, so lean on other people sometimes! They want you to.
I really want to make it all the way to the end, but I decided to write these letters just in case. If you're reading this, something happened to me after all. I'm sorry. I didn't want you to ever have to read something like this. If I have to go, then this is the least I can do for you. There's so much I need to tell you.
The fact that you're reading this now must mean someone found my diary and all my notes and letters. Whoever found all of it, tell them I said you can read my diary too, if you want. Also, I want you to have my walking stick. I know I don't use it anymore, but Riku made it for me. If anyone should have it, it's you.
All I ever wanted this whole game was to save everyone. Now I can't live up to that responsibility, so I need you and everyone else [the "and everyone else" is underlined several times] to do it for me, okay? I know you can win. Even without more killing! Make my death, and anyone who died with me, the last.
You shouldn't be sad! I'll be watching, and if you get sad I'll kick your butt when you guys come save all of us!
You're an amazing person, Percy. You're brave and strong and kind and smart! I hope someday I can be just like you. I've never had a family, but if I did, I wish you could be part of it.
If you somehow find this letter before my trial, please tell everyone... I'm sorry I couldn't make it till the end, and I'll miss them, but you guys have to do your best! I believe in each and every one of you (even you, Ash.), and I know you guys can do it. I'll be cheering for you all the way, no matter what! I guess I'm just sad that I can't be there with you all. [here the paper is stained with a few drops of water, but she goes on through them like they're not there.] But it's okay! We'll all see each other soon.
Please take care of yourself, Percy. Remember that you need to sleep more than once a week. Tell Jason I said he can punch you if you keep trying to do it all on your own.
I'll give Annabeth a hug for you, okay?
Everyone needs you, Percy. But something tells me you need them just as much. Work together, and be strong. I'll see you when this is all over, and maybe we can get ice cream together.
[she draws a little flower. it's not a great drawing, looking almost like a child's sketch, but Percy might notice it looks a lot like the flowers the two of them picked for annabeth and riku's graves.]
-Xion
(PS. Please don't read my diary to Shinnosuke. I wrote some, um, embarrassing stuff, and I really don't want him to know!!)
(PPS. Please read him my letter to him, though. I don't want anyone else to do it.)
(PPPS. Thank you. For everything. For being my friend, and even for trying to take care of me, even if I pushed back sometimes. I don't know what I would've done without you. Never forget that your friends love you.)
[ there's a bit of a break. the note that's added after was pretty clearly done some time later. ]
I hope you make it. I really hope you make it. If Damian doesn't, keep the letter meant for him.