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[week two - sunday, post-execution]
[ Why is this bothering her?
Xion has watched so many things disappear. All kinds of monsters, fading into the darkness beneath her swings. Capturing hearts, jumping from world to world, performing reconnaissance and fighting, always fighting... she'd thought there wasn't anything that could really shock her. Not after everything she and her best friends went through.
But this ... it's so much. Watching a real human being get shot in the head is so, so different from watching a Heartless fade away.
She could never ... have prepared herself for it. How real and violent it feels.
Xion is trying her absolute hardest to keep the horror of it all beneath her skin as she goes ... searching. Once Natalie has helped her calm down a little, there's someone she knows she should see, someone she made a point of running away from last night. And, like proof of her impulse and her shame, she's still in the same clothes she wore during the trial, and in fact, they're now dusty and dirty, like she's been out all night. (Which she was.)
But she has to do this first. She has to find Seizaburo.
It takes her some time to track down her friend, but the moment that she spots him, Xion will draw up short, clasping her hands over her chest. ]
... Seizaburo? I ... [ She ducks her chin. ] Could we talk?
Xion has watched so many things disappear. All kinds of monsters, fading into the darkness beneath her swings. Capturing hearts, jumping from world to world, performing reconnaissance and fighting, always fighting... she'd thought there wasn't anything that could really shock her. Not after everything she and her best friends went through.
But this ... it's so much. Watching a real human being get shot in the head is so, so different from watching a Heartless fade away.
She could never ... have prepared herself for it. How real and violent it feels.
Xion is trying her absolute hardest to keep the horror of it all beneath her skin as she goes ... searching. Once Natalie has helped her calm down a little, there's someone she knows she should see, someone she made a point of running away from last night. And, like proof of her impulse and her shame, she's still in the same clothes she wore during the trial, and in fact, they're now dusty and dirty, like she's been out all night. (Which she was.)
But she has to do this first. She has to find Seizaburo.
It takes her some time to track down her friend, but the moment that she spots him, Xion will draw up short, clasping her hands over her chest. ]
... Seizaburo? I ... [ She ducks her chin. ] Could we talk?
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Her expression turns sympathetic and sad, though it may be for different reasons than Sei thinks. If Sei is taking a hard line on taking out anyone willing to kill, then Xion probably has similar feelings about the whole approach to the game.
Can someone be willing to play, but not be willing to kill?
Maybe... she ought to tell Sei what she knows. ]
I'll be okay. [ This she says firmly. ] I know I keep getting upset when it's time to vote, but... I'll make it. I won't drag everyone else down. But, Seizaburo...
[ Her mouth works a little, pressing into a line. ]
Don't you remember? The Sheriff said there would be consequences if we tried to just not kill. You've seen what he's willing to do. Even if we create a group of us that we can all trust 100% not to kill, something awful might happen because of that decision.
[ Xion bows her head, looking at their linked hands. ]
Has anyone told you what happens if you win?