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[week one - saturday]
[ Before she isolates herself - before she tries to hide away - Xion goes for a walk.
She hasn't even gone back to her room to see Pluto yet, which feels a little mean. But she feels so ... so tired, so ... thin. Thin is a strange word to use, but it's all that occurs. She feels ... like she's being pulled apart, and there's almost no substance left to her.
Walk. Move. Clear your head. It feels weird ... that in a whole week, she hasn't had to do any fighting at all.
Xion pauses in her walking when she realizes where her feet have taken her automatically -- the graveyard.
How morbid.
And yet.... despite everything, she still associates a sense of peace with this quiet place. Xion steps in, moving without thinking towards her own grave and settling down before it.
Given the day's events, she's not expecting to be interrupted. ]
... will we ... have to put Tiara, here?
[ so faintly, meant to be said to herself. ]
She hasn't even gone back to her room to see Pluto yet, which feels a little mean. But she feels so ... so tired, so ... thin. Thin is a strange word to use, but it's all that occurs. She feels ... like she's being pulled apart, and there's almost no substance left to her.
Walk. Move. Clear your head. It feels weird ... that in a whole week, she hasn't had to do any fighting at all.
Xion pauses in her walking when she realizes where her feet have taken her automatically -- the graveyard.
How morbid.
And yet.... despite everything, she still associates a sense of peace with this quiet place. Xion steps in, moving without thinking towards her own grave and settling down before it.
Given the day's events, she's not expecting to be interrupted. ]
... will we ... have to put Tiara, here?
[ so faintly, meant to be said to herself. ]
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[ ???? what???
At first, it's as if the voice came out of nowhere, but upon further examination it appears to be coming from a freshly dug grave.
Yo! ]
1/4
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[ what ]
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Jeez. She's ... she's really jumpy today, huh ... ]
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... you're really straightforward, aren't you. [ hmph ] What ... are you doing over there?
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It's a new grave for Ao! We couldn't let her just sit in Jason's, and I said I'd make her a new one when I dug her up, so... what do you think? And don't worry, this was a one-off, I don't plan on stealing the gravekeeper's job.
[ He... only just learned that they even have one today. ]
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He's ... does he mean this? He's not ... making fun?
Xion gets to her feet, her hands clasped tightly over her chest as she walks over to stand beside him, looking down into it before looking up at him. ]
... this was really nice of you to do for her. [ Said sincerely. She has no real reason not to take him at his word and assume he's doing this in good faith - he was a little clueless during the trial, but not as bad as that other boy, and not mean like Nui. ]
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So what's a kid like you doing at a graveyard after everything that's happened? Let me guess, your mind is still on the trial?
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Uh huh. It's hard not to think about it. I feel ... so bad for Ao and Tiara. This whole system... it's so messed up. I really want to believe that together, we'll all find a way out of this, but ... I'm so tired. It's hard to believe that, right now...
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Do you think everyone here feels the same as you? [ Genuine question, although it wouldn't be a surprise if someone took it with a tone of judgement. ] If you haven't noticed, we got a few wolves in sheep's clothing here. Unlike Ao or Tiara, some will kill for the joy of it, or for some kinda promised reward, you know? Wouldn't it be better to put them underground?
[ He looks directly at the young girl, expecting an answer to his seemingly rhetorical question. ]
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Xion takes a moment to absorb that before responding. ]
There is someone... who told me that the way I feel is "normal." Which meant ... like everyone else, I guess. [ thoughtful ] So ... maybe some people do. I don't think everyone feels the same way, though. You don't, [ she points out, entirely without accusation or malice. ]
And ... I think you're right about that. There's ... some really scary people here. [ Nui, and Ash. ]
But are you saying we should ... bury them? [ a little confused and concerned at once by the "put them underground" phrasing. ]
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Wouldn't that be justice?
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... they might be scary, and they might be bad, but they haven't done anything yet. If they do...
[ Xion presses a hand to her chest, staring at the ground. ]
I don't know ... if it's justice. Even if they're scary, and even if I wouldn't be sad... we're all being forced to do this, aren't we? If it's not justice for us to kill Tiara, then... it's not justice to kill them either, no matter how bad they might seem.
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I gotta say, you're no ordinary kid.
[ He sets the shovel down before continuing. ]
Let me ask you something - would you have done what she did? Let's say you kill someone, in what's supposedly self-defense, would you try to cover it up?
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She doesn't get it.
... how can she explain ... that she can't--
Xion lifts both hands now, as if she might cover her mouth, but aborts the motion just shy of her face. ]
... only if ... I had to. That is ... [ her jaw tightens. ] ... if you turn yourself in, would that still count as playing the game? That seems to be really important to whatever is going on in this place. I'd be worried ... about the consequences everyone else might face.
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[ He lets out a sigh. ]
There are people here I need to protect, I think you feel the same way. If I ever come across as a monster in order to get to the truth, well... I wouldn't blame you for thinking I'm not human. To be perfectly honest, I confuse myself sometimes! [ that's not funny??? ]
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[ ... she lets it slide. Not that she knows the term, but arguing the niceties of turning yourself in or covering up your crime would just become semantics. There's still a point he's made: there's risks either way that someone innocent gets hurt.
Something about what he says then jars her, though. Her eyes get a little wide. ]
No, I ... I'd never think that! You're human, no matter what. I...
[ She pauses for a second, trying to calm herself. ]
... I do think you're really confusing. But ... you don't seem that bad. I think... we're just different. [ She smiles crookedly. ] That's okay though, isn't it?
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Is that a question? I'll say I never met anyone like me, so you're not wrong. Come to think of it, I dunno if I know anyone like you either. Do you wanna be friends?
[ god he's so weird ]
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Yeah! Of course I'll be your friend. That actually sounds really nice. I hope we can learn more about each other!
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[ Who knew all it would take was a morbid discussion at a graveyward! ]
Although I wasn't making a joke if that's what you think. You should know I'm completely serious!
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I don't think you're joking! That's why it's funny. You're ... so strange. But that isn't a bad thing.
[ Xion beams at him, bright as sunshine. ]